It’s Monday today. It doesn’t feel like a Monday today. It feels like a Thursday. I don’t need to explain that really for people to grasp what I’m saying. Isn’t that strange?
Time in general just kind of makes me mad, because the sun and moon run on cycles and have for ALL OF CREATION.
That’s a whole bunch of topics I could really get into. Astrology, Numerology, Astronomy, Theology, and Ancient History. Mhm, some of my favorite topics, truly.
Today my plan is to clean while also being kind to myself.
Like taking an everything shower but also changing my bed linens. (I’ve been needing to change them I just hate the laundromat so bad)
I want to start painting my nails again and doing cute little designs on them. I’ve never been a big nail design person but I kind of want to try it.
I’ve lately been feeling a calling to completely change up my fashion. I haven’t explored into it yet, because gas is $8k a gallon so I’m wearing what I have for now. I want to lean into more feminine clothing and looks. I also want to get a sewing machine so that I can take the clothes I have now (with fabrics I already like) and sew new clothes custom tailored to my body that fit how I like.
Since I got I started my journey into Womanhood (in the 5th grade) I was taught that “Modest is hottest” and growing up in the bible belt there isn’t much fashion sense anywhere anyway. At the time Chevron print was everywhere. Zebra & Teal. Zebra & Hot Pink. Chevron & LIME GREEN.
Who was behind this awful fashion era? I couldn’t tell you.
I would like to put on the record that I, an Alabama native, have not bought anything chevron or zebra. I will say I have had monogramed makeup bags, though. (They were gifts, BUT I wanted one and loved them)
But anyway, back to what I was saying about modesty.
I always felt compelled to cover up my breasts.
Now, I don’t know if that comes from growing up Southern Baptist, the south in general, my mom, or what exactly was the catalyst that made me obsessed with a V-Neck shirt paired with a camisole, but here we are years later at 31, nearly 32, and I don’t even wear I “real” bra most of the time because I don’t like being perceived with “big boobs”
Yes, I am aware that I sound like: “oh no! My lobster it to buttery!”
But I promise you I am not being facetious. My build doesn’t fit me. (In my personal opinion, but hey, who am I on this subject?)
I am 5″1. My weight fluctuates between 110-130. I didn’t know my true bra size until I went to Dillards with my mom in 2025 at 30 years old.
I was wearing a 34C bra I had gotten years before and called my “nice bra“. The attendant asked me a few questions about what I wanted in a bra. I said everyday wear, comfort, and support.
I hated the idea of a new bra because I had never worn a comfortable one. I thought my “nice bra” was as good as it got. (I literally couldn’t move freely in it without spilling out..)
She directed me to the fitting room and brought some bras in for a fitting/sizing. Just me, my mom, and the Dillards bra lady.
I would like to say she was super super nice and I would remember her face. If I find myself in the bra market I will be going back to shop with her. She changed my whole outlook on bras. I wish I could remember her name. If I go back, Ill update this blog. Shout out to the bra lady at Dillards in Oxford.
The first one she put on me was instantly so comfortable it brought tears to my eyes. It was the first time I had felt relief from carrying weight around the front. It was amazing. Then she told me what size it was. I’ll give you a moment to guess, because I wasn’t ready for what she said.
If you guessed 32G, please call me because how the fuck did you know that?
In conclusion, I have no idea how I got on this topic but here we are and now I want to go bra shopping, because apparently your breasts will change size throughout the month and IDEALLY you would have 1-2 bras for every phase of your cycle.
I’m not an OBGYN, but I have been living with this cycle since I was 11, so I do know some things. I think that is a pretty good health disclaimer.
- The Menstrual Phase – Duh, this is your period. The shedding of the Uterus’ lining, that’s why you cramp and bleed. You will have Low Estrogen & Progesterone during this phase of your cycle.
- Follicular Phase – Your body preps for another cycle to begin, again. Your hormones will be rising back up from the low they hit during your period during this phase.
- Ovulation Phase – Big ole hit of LG (Luteinizing hormone) to the system and, BLOOP, your body releases a mature egg waiting to be fertilized. Your Estrogen peaks during this phase, and your Progesterone rises immediately after the egg is released. ALSO, your Testosterone levels peak which is why you feel feral and insane sometimes during this phase.
- Luteal Phase – The Progesterone is still rising. It’s getting the uterus prepped for pregnancy. If there is no pregnancy, THAT’S OKAY. Your body breaks it all down and you restart your cycle.
Alright, now that I’ve for some reason discussed a little about bra’s and your cycle..
I’m gonna go wash my hair and get the day started. I have started a Pinterest board with quite a few good writing prompts I would love to try.
Anyway, TTFN!
Cheetah Print Bucket Hat 
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